I Hate Driving

    When I imagined myself driving, I've always thought of it as a concept, as something abstract, not in the sense of actually operating a four wheeled machine with the potential to kill. As a result, I'm confused and kinda freaked.

    My teacher admitted that she was scared out of her wits by my driving. *grimaces* Poor thing. The car bounced along with my every unconscious whim, and her head bounced on and off the headrest in rhythm. Every few minutes, she had to reach over to control the steering wheel to keep me from totaling the car and killing both of us. More than once, she had to yell in my ear to remind me what to do when I panicked. Though she was very nice at the end of the lesson and told me that the reason she yelled wasn't because she was mad but was caused by the fact that she had to keep my pathetic brain on focus. Sigh.

    The innocent car was tortured by my artless skills. More than once the engine died in the middle of the road as I mixed up all the annoying mechanics. I think I basically did every possible thing to hurt the car. The car would be very lucky to survive my learning. But hey! Isn't it supposed to be heavy duty? I mean, it's a car meant for ignorant drivers like me! *defensive*

    Maybe I'm not meant for driving after all. I can't remember all the troublesome steps to operate the car. I get jumpy after the car exceeded 20 or 30 km/j and I actually loved it when other cars cut the line because when they wandered off my sight they were not my responsibility anymore. My teacher kept telling me to relax my killer grip on the steering wheel. My eyes kept wandering off without my actual knowing to check if everything's in order. They expect us to multitask! I mean, I can barely control the stupid car, why do I have to take care of other stupid cars and the stupid people and the stupid animals and the stupid lines and the stupid rocks and stones by the stupid roads at the same time too? Gosh can't they sympathize with people who are stupid at driving like me?

    If someone gave me a car to drive right now, I would probably abandon it by the road and opt to walk on foot. Auto gear'd better be easier to operate 'cause that's my only hope now.